Dental work
January 26th (last Thursday) I had my dental procedure done. It takes a lot out of you, so I've been basically coasting ever since. Not something I'd typically think about writing, but in the vein of being honest and truthful about my life events, not exactly something I can ignore either.
I've always hated my teeth. They have been the bane of my existence for so many years. I've seen more dentists over the years with extreme measures for their viability and nothing seemed to work. I've had teeth pulled, capped, root canals, filed, filled, disguised, and gums scraped. To no avail. I finally got to the point where I asked myself, seriously, what is the point? Let's just start all over- let's just be done with it all.
You feel a bit like a failure and that it is an extreme decision you can't come back from. You think you know what you are getting yourself into, but there still ends up being surprises and moments when you think you made a mistake.
So, they gave me a prescription for pain meds (actually antidepressants) to take before I arrived. I can honestly say I faded in and out through the whole thing. I was aware of certain things (like the nova-cane shots) but not a lot of actual procedures. I was aware enough at one point to put on my mp3 player, but don't remember listening to it.
Steve drove me there and back and then again on Friday when they checked on my progress. I am going back today on my own for what I think is a bone spur.
It feels like there's too much in my mouth. the teeth feel small compared to all the gum material. The teeth have a smaller profile on the backside than on the front. Looking at my gums without the dentures in place is a scary thing! I can't even describe how horrific. I keep thinking I can deal with it and they will heal up and look better, but for now, it's just freaky. I've had so many problems in the past with TMJ that it's a work in progress to adjust to my teeth meeting and in the absence of the teeth , going past the point they normally would meet. It's early days and there's adjustment, swelling, healing, and so on, so I don't know which part of this will remain , which part will get better, or what I'll need to get used to. I've progressed to the point I take them out at night and then, I look like an old granny woman. I've not gone out in public yet and try to deal with talking much, but, today I have to because of that sharp thing in my gum. The teeth push against it, making it very sore, so I need to have it looked at. Adjusting to the bottom ones are much harder than the top- perhaps this is one reason.
I've not felt like doing much these past few days. Yesterday I did sew a bit, but I've mostly been sleeping, watching Tv and reading. I started reading "the hunger games" and ended up reading all three books. It felt strangely appropriate to read of the characters' terrible lives as I'm going through a painful recovery.
I've been eating soft foods and dreaming of crackers and sandwiches. LOL I've actually not been enjoying the pudding and jello and icecream. I've been wanting savory flavors- so mash potatoes and gravy, potatoes, eggs, and soup are better, but not really hitting the spot. I'm wondering how to eat veggies. Steve has been great about getting me what I want, I'm just not sure what I want. I am concerned about protein- besides eggs- maybe I should get insure.
So, it's hard to see the benefits at the moment. I am sure I'll get the hang of it all eventually- lots of people do- and I hope I recover enough to be ok when I start back to work. I'll have a beautiful new smile with perfect teeth. I'll share it as soon as I can.