Friday, July 21, 2017

Mid summer blues

It's been awhile since I've checked in here. The long hot summer has kicked in with a vengeance here and it's taking it's toll on my garden. In the past, my summers had more free time to devote to the garden. Now that I am working in a different job, those summer days are spent away from home for the most part. The garden suffers.  This week has been unusually harsh between the near 100 degree temperatures and working 7 days (with a 12 hour day thrown in there) and you can see how hard it is to tend the garden.
  I'm struggling to decide if I need a community and, if so, what kind. I'm part of a few and I'm not feeling exactly fulfilled. It makes me question if I need to even have one if they are all vexing me.
  My art is my art.
 I sent a couple pieces to be part of a travelling exhibit. the exhibit is shown in total and in parts, where the coordinator decides to send it. Some of the decisions perplex me.
  I am asked to jury into a small local guild gallery which, by all accounts, is not part of the rules of the guild and shouldn't even be a thing. I have no intention of doing so. I think the discussion ended with, when I have the time to devote to it, I can put my art in.
  I joined a rag tag group that seems to want to join people together, but the people are so diverse and the group seems to be heading in a multitude of directions that, seems so random. Not sure I understand what's going on there.
  I joined a state wide group but I never get the opportunity to show my work because most of the opportunities are 4 hours away. The one opportunity to show locally is where I work already and I can't be two places at once.
  I need to just sit back and enjoy the dubious ride the traveling art show is doing since there's nothing I can do about it anyway.  I need to work towards the two opportunities I have upcoming and then see how the gallery shapes up.
 Most of all, I need to enjoy the fun I'm having now and see where it takes me. I have had in my mindset that I make art, show art, sell art and repeat. I probably need to examine that definition a bit and let go.
 So many shows are about limits. Size, techniques, presentation, and often theme. It is a constant struggle to keep your own voice in the face of all of that. I'm trying very hard to find my center again.